HBD. Te amo.

As another year passes I gotta reflect a little.

I’m a crazy lady. I’m actually insane. But never in my life have I been more resolved about certain things. Sometimes I question my choices and decisions (like for instance watching this horrible movie right now called Spanglish where a horrible white lady outdoes herself in the “white-womaning” department). But for the most part I’m proud of myself for trying to show that I know my worth.

My friendships and my familial relationships are my crutch. I am a slave to them. Most of them help me grow. But a number of them are also incredibly detrimental.

Each year I think have gained so much knowledge that it will all be gradually learning things from this point on. But it’s not. It’s like lesson after lesson after lesson.

This year, for some reason, I am even more grateful. 23 was a tough year of lessons.

Oh my goodness he just kissed her!!!! That was so uncomfortable. I really hope they don’t… oh boy. Ugh.

Lo siento. I had to comment on this maddening movie.

Anyway, tough year because of alllll the thousands of lessons. I feel 10 years older. Basically, my 23rd year has been a trip. But I’ve felt 24 for awhile now. I hope that my resolve in learning doesn’t go away anytime soon.

Girl. Do not do it. He is nooot worth it. Get up and leave. Girl. Don’t look back. Yes. Yes, sweetie. Good girl. You leave because yes.

I’ve had to make some tough decisions regarding how I’m going to go about certain relationships this year.

It was hard. I cried. Still cry sometimes. But I think in the long run, this is good. I think I’m finally beginning to heal. I think being away from madness and having to focus on myself is helping me to finally see my wounds and work towards maybe patching them up.

I have a ways to go. Some wounds I thought were a little healed, are actually still pretty wide open. Then, some wounds made themselves known after years of being invisible.

Insolent child. Horrible white lady. Man. This is not a comedy. THAT IS HOW IT ENDS?? THE HECK?! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE JOKING. I WANT WHATEVER PERCENTAGE OF MY NETFLIX SUBSCRIPTION THAT TWO HOURS WAS BACK.

Anyway, I am not excited but I look at the growth that I’ve made and continue to make in a positive manner.

Happy birthday to me.

Besos.

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