God is a funny funny immortal being. Just when I think, maybe, just maybe I can rest my mind and settle, He has a way of confusing me once again. I thought I was finally in a position to be happy with my job and my family life. I thought maybe things were lining up…
Tag: stream of consciousness
She has stars in her eyes
This is an unfinished post from January 2020… I have a theory. A wacky, 2 a.m. can’t sleep theory. When the universe was created all those many moons ago it was a Big Bang, right? And from the Big Bang came everything we know. I theorize that when our universe exploded into life and all…
A philosophy of sorts
Sometimes you wake up and you look at yourself and you’re like, “Damn. I’m fly.” And it’s not just like you have a cute outfit on or your makeup is on point, it’s that you feel good about your insides and your actions and you may not know exactly what is going on at all…
Purest imagination
Sometimes when things are going so well, I get really scared. Like I’m terrified. Any moment, the proverbial shoe could not only drop it could sink into a deep black endless wormhole with no other side. Because when things are this good, it’s only a matter of time before my luck runs out. It’s happened…
Love.Dream.Be.
The greatest part (sometimes the worst part too) about being an empath is that even when stuff is going “weirdly” not “perfect”, things are still so beautiful. Even when my heart breaks or is a little bruised by something, I remember this: for my heart to get a scar or hurt a little means that…
Thunderstorms and beaches
I have these moments, many if you’ve been reading this blog for awhile, where I am/feel like a bad bitch. You know? I feel like I can walk the streets by myself and be so comfortable and badass. Then… Then there are other times. When it’s raining and there is a storm watch for like…
Love letter to men
I’m in the mood to rant and I’ve got some time before church so imma go in for a second. Men, listen, you are not the keeper of my thoughts. You don’t know what my past is, you don’t know my life. If you make assumptions you not only prove yourself to be an ass,…
Paul
Suggested soundtrack: The Winner Is – Mychael Danna and DeVotchKa I’ve always tried to be weirdly honest on this blog. I do this because I believe in transparency (even if it’s only with strangers) but also because I think it plays into the central goal of this blog: to better understand myself and my relationships by closely…
I’ve been hallucinating you
So I’ve been slightly in my head these last couple days. I think my brain knows I’m going home very, very soon. Home in my mind means wonderful things like my sister and my nephew. It means the warmth of familiarity and of the golden sun of Maine that is just the right temperature. It’s…
Serenity Searching 