I’m in the mood to rant and I’ve got some time before church so imma go in for a second. Men, listen, you are not the keeper of my thoughts. You don’t know what my past is, you don’t know my life. If you make assumptions you not only prove yourself to be an ass,…
Tag: relationships
He is the same
You cannot want more for someone than they want for themselves. Sometimes I get frustrated because I want the best for those I love and care about. One could say I have high standards and I’m judgmental. And I would agree. But all of it comes from a place of love. If I didn’t care,…
Paul
Suggested soundtrack: The Winner Is – Mychael Danna and DeVotchKa I’ve always tried to be weirdly honest on this blog. I do this because I believe in transparency (even if it’s only with strangers) but also because I think it plays into the central goal of this blog: to better understand myself and my relationships by closely…
Poor Unfortunate Soul
Hello. Hi. Hello, my name is… Hi. Dammit just don’t. Just let them speak first and follow their leads. Fuck. Gosh. Ok. Now what? What are this person’s intentions? They’re probably nice. But you said that last time. Look how that turned out… Say nothing. A variation of this plays out in my head with…
Disclaimer
Disclaimer: the following was written on March 23rd in a coffee shop near my new home. I’m sitting in a coffee shop and I didn’t bring anything to write with. Of course that would be when I would want to write. I am going to be just fine. I know I will. However, I miss…
A Day of Love
I expected to feel alone or empty a lot of today. I actually did at certain parts of the day. Texting my friends and seeing how many people I wasn’t seeing on the day of love made me a touch sad. However, an amazing thing happened in the late morning. It started earlier in the…
Shelter
Have you ever been quietly content? There is much on your mind. There are crazy emotions swirling up in the noggin and in your heart but there isn’t anything you can do about them as you sit so you choose to be quietly content with things as they are. Currently quietly content. Family, friends, lovers,…
Sommeil
I think the more I’m in the real world the more I’m seeing the heartbreaking pitfalls of technology and living in a society where sex and being rude and distant is normalized. I think sometimes people just want to establish some sort of connection so they may have someone to chat with about the normal…
On the Edge of Something Beautiful
Someone said you’ll always be upset about the chances you didn’t take. I firmly believe that. However, if one is unable to take such a leap, it may also be that they are not ready or the universe is helping them out in some way. I’m unsure if that is what happened last night. Fear…
Ummm Ok
Have you ever experienced selective remembering? I’ve been having a couple cases of that the last few days. When something reminds you of good times with a person and you’re like, “I should call that person up and tell them,” but then you remember you don’t have that relationship anymore. There is also the case…
Serenity Searching 