God is a funny funny immortal being. Just when I think, maybe, just maybe I can rest my mind and settle, He has a way of confusing me once again. I thought I was finally in a position to be happy with my job and my family life. I thought maybe things were lining up…
Tag: fear
Must reclaim my kingdom
When I was a kid, I used to love living in my head. There, I was the princess and I was the dashing hero. I slayed beasts and saved myself. I made up stories of love and triumph. I went on grand adventures to far off worlds while living in a home I didn’t always…
A philosophy of sorts
Sometimes you wake up and you look at yourself and you’re like, “Damn. I’m fly.” And it’s not just like you have a cute outfit on or your makeup is on point, it’s that you feel good about your insides and your actions and you may not know exactly what is going on at all…
This is a God dream
I’m in a state. I have been numb for the last few weeks and being sober has allowed me to keep all the emotions at bay. Tonight I drank a little–it’s my school’s music festival weekend. The carefully constructed and seemingly strong wall broke. Now I’m in the bathroom and I cannot leave. I’m feeling…
Love Drought
I started this post awhile ago but I just haven’t been in the right frame of mind to finish it. I’m there now. I have the guts to be honest with you and myself. There are tangible, real life reasons that I feel the way I’ve been feeling since coming home. My father has not…
Amelia Mignonette Thermopolis Renaldi
I had a post completely planned out. Honest, I did. I was suppose to start writing it right after dinner and all would be wrapped up before 8pm tonight. Then I started thinking about the theme of the post and possible names. I will put this out there now, Stranger: the theme for this post…
Serenity Searching 