Sometimes I think Man, I did NOT sign up for this. I did not pen my name On this crazy ass contract. For the 4am wake ups. For the monthly bouts of pain. For the hurling of painful events In q u i c k succession. I did NOT sign up for this. I didn’t…
Theirs is the mightiest roar
My tribe came through today. I had a bad day. Not a bad day where everything major went wrong but where everything small went wrong. Those are sometimes even worse. Because a lot of the time, my brain can process major things going wrong. A single catastrophic event that was totally out of my control….
Remember
Souls are good. Even if sometimes I get angry or sad. Souls are good. Mine. Yours. Ours. Through it all, they are good. Te quiero mucho. -M
HBD. Te amo.
As another year passes I gotta reflect a little. I’m a crazy lady. I’m actually insane. But never in my life have I been more resolved about certain things. Sometimes I question my choices and decisions (like for instance watching this horrible movie right now called Spanglish where a horrible white lady outdoes herself in…
Rumblings of the jade
You ever feel like you need to go? You need to run? You need to just not.be.here? These are not, I promise you not, Suicidal thoughts. I’ve had those. I crawled my way back from those. I lived those. I stitched myself up From those. That is not what these That is not what this…
He is the same
You cannot want more for someone than they want for themselves. Sometimes I get frustrated because I want the best for those I love and care about. One could say I have high standards and I’m judgmental. And I would agree. But all of it comes from a place of love. If I didn’t care,…
Car Musing
One of the things I have missed the most since beginning this new job is driving. I am taking my car on a massive road trip from Maine to Wisconsin to remedy the situation. I love driving so I’m super excited. I love driving because when you’re on the highway, the music is low and…
Paul
Suggested soundtrack: The Winner Is – Mychael Danna and DeVotchKa I’ve always tried to be weirdly honest on this blog. I do this because I believe in transparency (even if it’s only with strangers) but also because I think it plays into the central goal of this blog: to better understand myself and my relationships by closely…
Poor Unfortunate Soul
Hello. Hi. Hello, my name is… Hi. Dammit just don’t. Just let them speak first and follow their leads. Fuck. Gosh. Ok. Now what? What are this person’s intentions? They’re probably nice. But you said that last time. Look how that turned out… Say nothing. A variation of this plays out in my head with…
Mama
Days like today are incredibly hard for me. I have to essentially delete all social media or stay away from it for 24ish hours. No, my mother has not passed. I have this same sadness on Father’s Day. My hopes for my future son(s) and/or daughter(s): May you always know that you are not alone…
Serenity Searching 