The wind outside my window sounds like waves crashing into rocks. Like an angry ocean the intensity ebbs and flows from a soft tap on the side of my windows to damn near shaking the apartment. Lone cars zooming down the street remind me that nope, not on a boat. Simply in a windy corridor….
Breathless
Sometimes I worry I’m too stubborn. Sometimes I ask myself if I am too self righteous. A know it all. An uncompromising bitch. Sometimes I wonder if, in my quest for constant self awareness I’ve closed myself off. Should I forgive that friend? Should I explore that relationship? Should I speak up on something that…
3:15-5:15
One of my favorite pastimes is ice skating because I feel like it’s the closest to flying I’ll ever get (until I go skydiving or bungee jumping but those aren’t regular activities I can go to whenever I want.) They say no speed skating but I cheat a little every time. I crouch and bend…
Gotta work for the cookie, ya feel?
Alright. It’s a two-emotionally-charged posts kind of day. Remember, in my last entry I said my life is going so well there’s only one thing that isn’t really a thing that is bothering me? I just wanted to also explain what that one thing is. I was going to direct this towards men but for…
Purest imagination
Sometimes when things are going so well, I get really scared. Like I’m terrified. Any moment, the proverbial shoe could not only drop it could sink into a deep black endless wormhole with no other side. Because when things are this good, it’s only a matter of time before my luck runs out. It’s happened…
When I grow up I want to be…
Sometimes I wonder Where would I be If I could be The truest version of me Sometimes I sit and I ponder I stare off into the walls Hoping beyond hope That it magically swirls And reveals a future unknown to me I think sometimes What would I be If I could be anything And…
“You’ve done a good job.”
My therapist said that to me this past week when I told her I was moving and would have to stop coming to see her. I’ve become one of those crazy bitches that shines a little brighter after finding out their therapist is proud of them. It’s been…a second? A minute? Awhile? All of the…
It got better…as it always does
Simple. Ups and downs. It always gets better. Life is a field of dips and valleys and hills and little moles popping up and distracting you every now and then. There are points when you feel like the entire landscape is burning around you and you can’t put out the flames. Then there are times…
Serenity Searching 