Hi there. I had dinner with an old boss recently and she asked me what’s been going on in my life and I had to tell her I am just trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and who I want to be.

One thing people don’t share often is that you just never stop being confused out here in the real world. I get confused all the time about who I want to be and what I actually want to do for work.

I love planning things and bringing joy to people. I always thought it would be through words. I always thought my greatest gift that God ever gave me was my ability to tell stories. Now I’m not sure and it sadness me but also confuses me. I love my job. I love telling stories. But I just don’t know if that is the most fulfilling thing in my life anymore.

I’ve been helping friends plan things like parties and events and it has brought me so much joy. Being able to bring a girl’s vision to life has been so wonderful. But I never in my wildest dream thought about this when I was in high school or college. It was always being a writer.

What do you do when the thing you thought was your calling just isn’t?

Oh boy. I’ll be praying for a miracle.

-M