I usually don’t reveal what songs I use for the title of my posts, but this one is too amazing to let slip by. I won’t let people not know it. On the Radio is, to me, a classic. It is so beautifully written and sung by the one and only Regina Spektor. I love her music and I think she has an amazing story telling ability.
…this is how it works:
you peer inside yourself
you take the things you like
and try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
and stick it into some, some else’s heart
pumping someone else’s blood..
To me these words represent one of life’s most beautiful aspects: passion. Recently I have been listening to TedTalks non stop. It all started when someone recommended the talk “Susan Cain: The power of introverts“.
Sidenote: this is an amazing talk and I would recommend it to anyone and everyone, especially introverts who need a little validation that it is ok to be an introvert in an extrovert dominated society. Just click on the title in the above paragraph and it will take you straight to it.
Anyway, I have developed a weird obsession for TedTalks. They’ve taught me a lot. I don’t just mean the actual information they contain but rather what it means to truly be yourself and to pursue your passions. These are men and women who have mastered the art of being themselves and it shows. I saw a talk by a young woman who is autistic that was nothing but inspiring. She spoke about how autism for her isn’t a disability, rather it allows her mind to be open in a way that other people’s minds aren’t. Then she left us with a question that basically amounted to this: why are we striving to be normal when we can be extraordinary?
Another talk focused on the data that everyone has inside them, specifically health data. A black, female statistician talking about all the cool things she has been able to determine about herself simply by gathering the data inside her (i.e. temperature, blood pressure, etc) is also very inspiring.
That’s what all of these videos have been to me. Inspiring. My goal is to have that. That level of sureness in one’s self and that level of passion for one thing (or many things) is something I want to achieve someday. I want to be able to love the things I find in myself. No, I don’t necessarily want to be invited to speak at a TedTalks convention (although that would be nice, don’t get me wrong) but I want to someday be so passionate about something that when I speak about it, people will have no choice but to listen. They will have no choice not because I am forcing them to listen but rather because my love and passion for whatever I am talking about spreads to them. They will want to hear what I have to say because of my level of passion.
I am so excited to learn more about myself this summer. I have begun my journey as discussed. Reserved, a little more commanding, doing things alone that will only help me better relax as well as help myself out in the future. It’s been hard, I’m not going to lie. It’s been difficult to take a step back vocally and mentally away from the people I hold nearest and dearest. It’s been working though. I feel better about myself and those around me are respecting me more.
I understand that it is not going to be smooth sailing for me mentally, however. I am someone who always psyches myself out of helping myself because it might not necessarily be the best thing for other parties involved, but I am getting stronger and stronger every day.
As my strength grows so does my knowledge of myself. Soon enough I might be sticking love into someone else and pumping someone else’s blood. It could happen. With my current resolve and my current enthusiasm to accomplish my goals, anything could happen.